i'm ready i'm ready i'm ready

This week is my last full week of college. School isn't officially over until Wednesday of next week but I count this as my last normal week.
I'm freaking out. Partly from excitement and partly because I don't want to leave.

Why I'm excited to leave:

• I'm exciting that I will never have to go through the 3-month rotation of new schedules.
  
• I won't be told that I must be here at this time and here at the other.
  
• I'm excited that I get to go back to my home. Idaho really makes you appreciate the good ol' Northwest. I think I've fallen more in love with Washington the farther and longer I've been apart from it.
• No more having to listen to giant gross trucks and motorcycles and four-wheelers roar by my window making it impossible to hear anything for 5 seconds
• I won't have to walk everywhere!! If I want to get somewhere I can drive!!
• No more Rexburg winters. Give me rain and lots of it.
  
• I'm excited to be around my family again. Going three straight semesters has given me a good strong case of the homesickness.
• NO MORE HOMEWORK
  
• Mostly I am excited to meet my niece! I've been showing her off to everyone I know. This truly is torture to see other people holding her and me not being able to.
• and I get my kitties back!!! All of my prayers were answered for my kitties to be safe while I was away and now I get to go back and snuggle with them and get all of my clothes coated in a fresh layer of cat hair.

What I'm not excited about leaving college:

• I love school. I always have and always will. I love learning new things. I love all of the exciting classes I get to take. I love the people I meet. And I always fall in love with my teachers. They are just neat people from neat backgrounds that have done neat things and have sooo much to teach me.
  
• I love BYU-Idaho. I fell in love the first fall semester I was up here. It's always hard leaving home for a new semester but I wouldn't do it if I didn't absolutely love this place. I really can't explain why I'm so attached to this place, mostly the feelings are too personal for words.
• No more taco bus, Fong's Chinese, teriyaki trailer or cheap sodas at Horkley's
• I'm not excited about leaving all of the amazing people I've met and made relationships with up here. There's no more 'next semester' to see them and hang out with them. For the most part I won't see any of these people ever again in my life. It's kind of heart-breaking. It's like graduating from high school and saying goodbye to all of your friends but ten times worse.
• I kind of like living in my own isolated environment. The words independent and adult comes to mind. No offense family, but I get to go where I want, when I want on my schedule (for the most part). I've figured out how to thrive in my own little world and I think it might take a bit of effort in transitioning out of it. There's no hiding behind family out here. You are who you make yourself and I think I've done quite well.
  
• No more gorgeous temple able to be spotted from practically anywhere you go.
  
• I have to start an 'adult' life. I don't want to leave my buffer between true adulthood and adolescence. College makes for a nice little limbo of just hanging out and having a good time (plus homework of course)
• Mostly I think I'm just going to miss people. Their and my life will keep on going but no longer near each other. No more inside jokes with roommates or crazy stories about what happened on a date last night. No more small day to day occurrences that aren't dramatic enough to be posted on a status. Sometimes being facebook friends just isn't enough (I learned that after graduation high school).
  

Worst part of it all? cleaning and packing.